Friday, August 13, 2010

OMGosh!

Finally my last semester result is out. For one particular subject that was delayed for almost a month! Gosh!

Guess what? I didn't do as well as I thought I did. And it was actually so unexpected! Most probably I'll request for a remark on my paper.

I'm not trying to be prejudice here but I have a friend that barely passed her internal marks which is about 60% out of 100% of the whole subject. But in the end, she can get a HD? What kinda bullshit is this? If she gets a D, it's acceptable, but HD? 40% is from finals exam. HD????

I got an internal of 48/60 which is securely a D. But I fall short of 4 marks to get a D, instead got 66/C! WTF? You will have to pass both papers in order to pass the subject; in other words, you'll have to achieve at least 50% for each paper. If I were to get 66/C, it kinda means that I flunked my final exam? And I flunked it with 2 marks? 

Ahhh... sickening!

I don't exactly look highly on myself, but I think I would know what kinda results I would get if I have actually studied for it and have achieve a relatively high internal marks. I shall proceed with the request I suppose. 

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Speaking of the devil, the whole week has not been exactly that good. I have been in a pretty bad mood (not PMS) and everything just didn't seem to be going its way. Hmmm...

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Holding Back The Tears...



I love this song. "Holding Back The Tears"
Though i'm not very sure of the lyrics but somehow how they sing it really portrays how I feel at times.
You should watch the movie by them! It's really nice! Touching!
 I used to follow this Korea's group (TVXQ/DBSK/东方神起) progress back in those days.
Love their songs so so much.
Just got to know recently that they've split. I was rather sad though. Just hope that their songs will live on.

I have been in a very emo condition this whole week. It wasn't a really good week for me either. Nothing seem to please me and my smile will only last a few moment, not long. I'm trying very hard to be happy and to not think about whatever-it-is-in-my-freaking-mind, but it's hard.

Seems like it's not only me that is having a bad week. One of my close friend in college is having a tough time too. Hope she'll be well soon. *Hugs*

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I think I need some space to think....some space to rest...some space to breathe.

'N'

~~Happy 2 Years 1 Month Dear~~

Friday, July 30, 2010

A New Semester!!!!! More like results review...

A new semester just kicked off last monday and nothing much have changed.

Not forget to mention of the industrial dispute in VU, our results got withheld. It was some what a strike that has taken place by the university's staff. Surprisingly, it was not only VU that faced such dispute; in fact, quite a number of Australia Uni's too! Even UNSW! Wow!

Anyway, there was not much that we can do though. Though I'm anxious to know about my results, but what can be done? It's out of our control. Thank God that only the result of one of the subject a.k.a. Introduction to Marketing was withheld.

I'm pretty much satisfied with my previous semester results. Wanna know it? Hmm...not trying to show off here, but just wanna share my joy! I think this might just be the best results I got so far since I went into college!

Tadaaaaa!!!!

One(1) HD and Two(2) D
*Note: HD=High Distinction; D=Distinction
*Jumping with joy!!!*
*Hugging mummy after I saw the results*
*Woot! Woot!*

All I expect for this semester might just be only D, instead of a HD. Computing subjects are not exactly my fav, but then again, I have no idea how I got such results! I guessed my coursework marks were relatively high? Maybe that's the reason why. Because I know I didn't manage well during finals. What I've studied did not come out; whereas those that I actually put my heart and soul to study came out. I just wrote crap on to the paper and pray that I'll pass! Just a P=Pass will do for me. I'm overjoyed with my results! Hooray!!!

As for the Ds...As usual, I though I flunked when I saw D. But got to realize that it's not exactly what I thought, it was really relieving! The subjects are Accounting for Decision Making(ADM) and Professional Development 1(PD1).

Accounting was never my fav subject. As you might have known, I was not an accounting major before and science was my fav all this while. A sudden change might not be that bad after all. I like the fact that I'm actually find accounting pretty interesting and it's way easier to understand as compared to immunology, biochemistry and etc. Oh gosh! I can barely remember anything from Biochem now. Perhaps some structures and amino acids, that's about it I suppose. LOL. ADM was not as hard as I thought it is, my classmates can even get HD for it! It seems it's way too basic, so maybe that's why people like me also can get D. Haha.

PD1 is a full coursework subject. It's the most stressful subject throughout the whole semester because there were a lot of group discussion and as you all know, sometimes group discussion just don't lead us to the right direction. My group consist of 4 people and 3 of them are from Indonesia with only me - a Malaysian. It was rather shocking and I was pretty lost being in the group but it all went well after all. The weird thing about our group is that, most of the discussions are in Bahasa Indonesia, which I can't speak at all. My Bahasa Melayu is like awful, what 's more with the Indon language? Guess how I got through it?
::They'll speak in Indon. I'll try to understand as much as possible then i'll speak in English to give any opinions::
As time goes by, we spoke more and we're more close. All of them can speak English but I think it's a normal reflex to speak in Indon when u see your fellow friends. It's all good with me. By the way, they are all 3 years younger than me. Do the calculations and you'll know how old they are!
From LH to RH: Ardo, Winda, Kuen & Ricky
Guys! Thank you for a fantastic group work. Though it was stressful, but it was a true experience. All of you have great presentation skills! Keep up with it! Cheers! 

As for Introduction to Marketing...it's to be confirmed. Sigh...

Thursday, July 1, 2010

我,还是会介意。。原来还是很介意。。。

我,还是会介意。。原来还是很介意。。。
(Quoted from JS)


没有人会明白那种感受...
算了吧!
还是自己撑下去吧!


加油!


.....续....


累...

超累...
哭, 也哭过了...
干嘛还是这样?
你为什么还是不明白?
偏偏还是要持续下去...

我, 可以离开吗?

A Dream

I have something huge in mind.

Still thinking if it'll work.

I'll be doing some research on that particular area in the next few days and hope that it'll happen.

Wondering if there'll be anyone that will support us on this?

This is a dream of me and brother.

A dream that we would like to achieve.

...something that we both knew in our heart that it might make it big.

really looking forward to it.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Waiting


Life is like a busy road filled with cars. 
 Either you rush through the heavy traffic 
or 
you shall just wait for your turn to cross the road.


Stop. Wait. Look.

At times you'll get fed up with such processes especially when waiting is involve.
Have you tried being stuck in a traffic jam that last you for an hour or two, maybe even more? 
That's sickening!
Well, that's how life is. Half the time you'll be stuck in the jam and wait...and wait...and wait.

I do get stuck in the congestion sometimes but half the time,
I'm stuck in my own mind! 
Waiting for a resolution to arise 
or
even waiting for someone to appear right before me.

To be truthful to myself,
I'm tired to waitiing. 
I ask myself,
why am I always the one waiting?

All the while, I've been really patient.
Please don't test my patience level, 
it's definately degrading and that's not a good news.

I hope in the future, 
people will be punctual and not let others wait.

I don't wanna be a hypocrite here, 
I just wanna voice out my feelings cuz 
I just feel that I've been waiting for people since like forever!
People don't appreciate!!! AT ALL!


Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Okay!!!
I'll be sitting for my next paper in like 25 hours from now!!!!

I can't concentrate!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

I'm going nuts!!!

I'm thinking of a lot of things!

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Let me list them down perhaps I'll be able to concentrate after this:

1.
 I wanna get a CAR. But no $$$$. 
No $$ No Talk

2
I wanna do my own business. 
Thinking of this particular one but don't know how to start with it. 
Still thinking...

3
I just found out that I have a cousin actually studied in the same school with me and I didn't know. 
She added me on facebook but I just brushed it off thinking that it was just another friend. 
While browsing, I realised that she was my cousin, a not-so-close one, I guess. 
Now she's studying like 1km away from me? 
Wow! Amazing! How did I not know that?!?!? Oh well! What a small world!
Wonder if she knew it all along that we were distant relative? 

4. 
I can't stop thinking of what I wanna do/going to do after finals!!!!!

5.
 I want finals to be DONE already!!!!!!! 


Ahhhh....
feeling better?
Hmm...
Yeah I guess.



Alright, back to study mode now. =) 


Oh! One last thing! I can't get CS off my head? I don't know why????? I wanna play wei~~~~~~