______ or not to _______?

To trust or not to trust?

This is something which I have contemplated ever since I step into college 7 years ago.

There were just too many betrayal which not only happen to me but also my friends and family that I saw throughout the years, and it has come to a point which I am reluctant to trust anybody.

A few of my closest friends...my family...there are the only ones.

To Love or not to love?

A blessing that's given to me since I was born. 

I thought my first relationship would be happily ever after; but not everyone's life is like a fairy tale. So much so, that didn't work out and I moved on. And there are people that came and left. Some broke my heart and I broke their heart. Anyway, I'm happy now, with what I have in my life. I have friends and family that loves me and I love them just as much. Family is the best and I always always heart them.  

To Live or not to live?

This isn't much of an option. 

There are times where I fell so hard and deep that it feels like I can never climb back up again. That is when I have this thought, which is not amusing at all. I try to refrain myself from thinking about it.

Not good to have this thought cuz it just screws up your life. And psychiatrist might just think that I'm nutz and I'll end up in some mental hospital!!! 

I'm just in this bad bad bad mood and i'm just stressed out! It's driving nuts!! 

The "Vow" of Travelling

It's unbelievable that I started this blog in 2008 and it's been almost 4 years already! Looking back at all the things that I have written over the years, some are just plain stupid and some are pretty thoughtful (*not self-praising, just thoughtful from my point of view). Well, may the bygones be the bygones, and may the day ahead be a better one.

I just watched "Friends with Benefits". Apart from THE part, I think the story line was pretty good. I haven't got to watch such movies in a long time. Movies like that rarely come along and when it does, it's just turns my thinking around. Anyway, I like the set in the movie. I like the sunny days and all the New York-ers way of life and also Los Angeles!

I like Grand Central Station, especially when they did the flash mob in movie, it was magnificent! I have seen Central Park many times in various movies, would love to see it for myself!




So...that reminds me of  a ' vow' that me and a friend's made - to travel around the world in 5 years time from  the date: 13th March 2012. It was just a plain spontaneous decision made over lunch. Of course we did consider the fact that one of us or both of us might be married by then and blah blah blah...but well, to us...probably that wouldn't be a problem yet. Let's see how things work out to be. It would be a GREAT achievement if we can actually do such awesome things together. I love the idea. Always wanted to do something like that, if I have the financials! That's why we set it 5 years from now...cuz I would have started working and earning...and I would be able to afford it? I hope so!! *Fingers-crossed*

There are so many places that I would love to visit- Maldives, Rio de Janeiro, Paris, Mexico, Switzerland...etc. So many many places, with fascinating culture and scenery.

Aww...I'm dreaming now. Off to dreamland now! ToodleS!

"Place"

This is my so-called "place" where I seek comfort in when I'm going through difficulties.

I'm not going through tough times. It's more like my brain is over-functioning and makes me think of unnecessary stuffs which in turn drain my energy..mentally

I realized that I'm no longer the same me as I was few years back, or probably a year back. My thinking is so much different and my expectations in life have changed tremendously. It's scary when I think of it.

I'm taking a step back, to think, of myself, my future, my past...and many more.

Something that I can do over the short break that I have. At least, a breathing space for me.

I would like to travel, to go somewhere where people don't know me. I want to scream my heart out, for whatever reason it may be. I'm happy with my life, just that there are too much input and there's no output in my mental system, so it's pretty congested at the moment. I need to take time off.

Love you then, love you still...forever and always. 

To my beloved Piggy. Happy 3 years 9 months! I Love You!