"Place"

This is my so-called "place" where I seek comfort in when I'm going through difficulties.

I'm not going through tough times. It's more like my brain is over-functioning and makes me think of unnecessary stuffs which in turn drain my energy..mentally

I realized that I'm no longer the same me as I was few years back, or probably a year back. My thinking is so much different and my expectations in life have changed tremendously. It's scary when I think of it.

I'm taking a step back, to think, of myself, my future, my past...and many more.

Something that I can do over the short break that I have. At least, a breathing space for me.

I would like to travel, to go somewhere where people don't know me. I want to scream my heart out, for whatever reason it may be. I'm happy with my life, just that there are too much input and there's no output in my mental system, so it's pretty congested at the moment. I need to take time off.

Love you then, love you still...forever and always. 

To my beloved Piggy. Happy 3 years 9 months! I Love You! 

People that make a difference in my life

Hi peeps!

I haven't been very consistent with my blog post, sorry about that. But I guess there's not much readers anyway, so I think I'll just update whenever I can.

Few weeks ago, I have been in this very down mood. Partly because I didn't do too well in my finals, got the results and it was not something that I am proud of. In my defense before anyone start criticizing, I did the best I could. Guess it wasn't enough?!? Oh well, no fret! I shall just do better the next time round. My second chance won't come until next year, so it'll be pretty hectic for me next year as it'll be my final semester for this course. Another reason would be --- thinking of how life would be after graduation (though it's about a year from now).

As I finish each semester, I will think of how long would I take to graduate. But miraculously, last semester what I thought was "when did I started this course?". It was July 2009. How long has it been? 2 years. Time flies, don't you think? With a blink of eye, I'm in my final year, waiting for myself to achieve and graduate with a degree! (FINALLY!) All this while, I have been saying that I prefer working than studying, but as I approach the working life(as in PERMANENTLY working), I think I'll prefer studying. You can have all the fun you want in the world and no one cares about you. You can skip classes if you want (not advisable though), and you can be late for classes and enter from the back door. Can you do all those when you're working?!? NOPE. What you'll get as punishment might just be embarrassment or probably pay cut, well it depends I suppose.

I wonder how life would be after we graduate? My dear bunch of friends which made my life in Sunway colorful. All of us will be heading to different directions. This is gonna be exactly how it was when I  left INTI. Everyone is spread across the globe pursuing their career.

Great Combination of Life

Friends are essential in life. They make a difference in your daily life and true friends will stand by you regardless of what the circumstances are.

Hometown Peeps!

Although my friends/classmates are younger than me but they are good people with pretty matured thinking. When I thought I would be mixing around with a bunch of kids (no offence but this is really what I thought when I first joined Sunway), they amazed me! Don't judge a book by its cover! True enough! I heart you girls a lot!!!!

Sunway Buddies!

I saw an article somewhere before, relating to friendship. It says that you don't have to be sad if your friends leave you because they have done their duty in your life. Why are friends here? Because there are around to guide us through difficulty and assist us. Instead of getting pissed at them, we should be grateful to them. Once their duty is done in your life, just like guardian angels, they will leave and head on to another destination or another person to guide them. The article was pretty meaningful. Will try to find it and post it up here.

Inti Peeps! 

In different stages in life, you meet different people. Though there are vague memory of my friends from kiddy garden and primary school, but just want to thank you all for being there for me. As I grew up and met more friends in high school and college days, I enjoyed myself with your company. Without you guys by my side, I doubt I can make it through those days. I seldom keep in touch doesn't mean that I have forgotten about you guys k? It doesn't work that way.

Lovely Girls! (Sorry KY, don't have another pic)

Alright, enough of it already. Till then peeps!

勇敢

My FIRST paper for this semester's finals will kick off in less than 12 hours. 

::勇敢::Bravery:: by A-Mei

I'm studying but I just can't help it as this song kept on playing in my head.

A close friend of mine sang this song in a Taiwan Competition, Superstar Avenue 7 - that's how I came across this song. As many of you may know that I'm not a big fan of Chinese songs, so it's very rare that I can addicted to these sorta songs.

Jess Lee sang this song with much feelings and emotions. I won't deny that I teared a bit when I watch her on television. I think my eyes will get watery every time I listen to this son. The original version by A-Mei does the same effect also, probably with even more emotions. Meaningful song I would say.
Just love it!!

Jess Lee's Version

A-Mei's Version

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It takes a lot of courage to make the first move.

Once the you take the first step, 

the following steps will not be as hard.

Shall I take the path not taken?

Or should I just stay on this path?

There are just too much risk. 

I'm risk adverse.

Confused.

亲情 :: FAMILY

I was talking to this friend of mine from INTI last time and he sorta makes me think of this:-

 "What if today is the last day of my life?"

Would you want to live with regrets? Definitely NO right?

Talking with him reminds so much of those good old days back in college when I was doing A-levels. I wish time could just turn back and let me relive those moments. I'm not saying that my Sunway friend are not good or anything, they are fantastic people; just that I miss those time...that feeling I have.

There are so many things to explore in this world and there are so many dreams that I would very much like to go after, but with certain circumstances, I'm unable to do so at the moment. After those words, it sort of inspired me to go after what I want. So for this 2011, I hope that I can achieve those that I have listed down.

亲情 means FAMILY. There's a saying in Chinese which I learn when I was in standard one but I only got the meaning after several year. 亲情深似海, means FAMILY RELATIONSHIP IS AS DEEP AS THE SEA. Which is totally true. Family will never dump you aside and not care for you, they'll always be there for you and support you all the way.

Staying at home and spending time with my mum made me realize that I have missed out so many things at home. Not being able to stick around for long, and only during weekends, I can't seem to feel the warmness in it. But somehow, this study break just gave me a wake-up call. My family is always there for me. Regardless of what the circumstance are, they are always there. I miss my Mum's cooking so much!!! It's just irresistible! ( I bet almost everyone will agree that their own mum's cooking is the best in the world wide world, right?)

Live your life to the fullest. 

Enjoy without worries (of course don't go overboard). 

Be yourself and live with no regrets. 

A Blood Pressure Away...

It was just another ordinary Friday, after lunch, I went back to get some stuff and accidentally left my phone in the car. I was too lazy to go get since I'll be going to get my brother in like 15 minutes time.

I was just too tired that day, and when I was about to doze off, a phone call woke me up. (Yeah, we have a house phone.)

It was my Dad!!!! The news that he brought me just struck me that instant, right straight to my heart. He told me that my Mum was admitted to the hospital. She had very high high-blood-pressure :: 210!!!!

That moment, I was in the midst of clearing my thoughts. Was I in a nightmare? *Pinch* Nope! I'm definitely not. There were a lot of things running through my mind.

To be honest, my mum is a very healthy person. She exercise regularly, eat really healthily too! She doesn't eat oily stuffs, only lean meat. She was even a vegetarian for almost 20 years before she got too weak without enough nutrients.

I just grabbed everything and rushed to the car. The moment I got my phone, I saw 6 messages & 6 Miss Calls. Before I get to read any of the messages, Piggy called. He told me that alot of people are looking for me. I teared the moment I heard that. I was so afraid that something will happen to my mum. I just can't think straight anymore. For a whole 2 minutes, I just sat in the car, crying...I called my brother and told him I'm coming to get him.

Long story short, Piggy got off work early and all of us went back home straight. It was seriously very scary to hear that my mum was admitted. It took us about an hour plus to reach S'ban, just in time to get into the hospital before their visiting hours are over. I have no idea where to go to, so I consult the Emergency Unit people which lead me to the guards. The guards were not helpful at all, instead they were really utterly rude! Damn U Biatch! Instead of helping me, I got scolded. So yeah, I found my way to the ward where my mum was treated. 

I saw my aunt sitting there, waiting patiently for her. After some time, I got to know that mummy was getting her eyes checked as she got headache and blurry vision. I managed to talk to her and I would really like to thank that doctor for doing check ups for my mum even though it's after working hours. Thank You.

Merely after that, mum was brought down to the semi-critical ward. The doctors checked her blood pressure and saw that it has gone down to 138 (still high but much lower than before), they discharged her. And I was relieved. She was too. She doesn't like to stay over in the hospital.

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With what have occurred that day, I got to see how much my brother cared for my mum. He was very very worried. So was I. Both of us was just in despair and lost. Piggy was there to comfort us.

Taken during CNY short trip to PD. 

Mummy, regardless of whatever it may be, all of us will be there for you. Be strong k? I love you a lot. Really really a lot. All of us love you a lot.

Appreciate whatever you have in front of you. 


I'm really thankful that my mum is better now. Thank God!  

2 Months and 2 Days

The blog has been officially dormant for 2 months and 2 days!
Well, I didn't mean to make it dormant but I rarely have the time and mood to update it.
Doesn't really matter anyway, cuz I doubt many people will be reading this after all.

I wish I have the mood and enthusiasm to do so. But these days, I'm just slacking too much and being too laid back. As a result of it, my studies are lagging as well, which is totally not a good thing.

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The semester is coming to an end now. Finals will be on 1st and 12th of November. The timetable is damn sucky and we can't do anything about it.

Imagine having TWO(2) Finance paper on the same day. To make it worse, it's the first day! Well, it's not all bad, just that it's gonna be pretty hectic and there's so much to remember. Let's hope that all of us will do well! Though the petition to Australia for changes in date did not work out plus with sarcasm from them, don't give up, just gotta show them how all of us can actually do well!

I have only one more assignment to go and I'm done with coursework! Just passed up two assignments today. Thank you to my group mates for all that you guys have contributed. I'm not a good leader at all, so this is my sincere apologies to you guys if I have offended you guys in anyway.

The semester has been a roller coaster ride. Lots of ups and downs. Lots to do. Lots to think about. There are 50/50 of both happy and bad times. I wish I could spend all on happy times and let my life be wasted on happy-go-lucky; instead of frowning over worthless things. But life is not always smooth, so there are times I have to go through really humongous-unwanted-bumps!

Lovin' the time spend with my buddies in college. I guess my college life in Sunway wouldn't be as exciting without you gals. They are just fantastic! Lovin' you gals! 

Clubbing has been a frequent thingy for me lately. Not because I'm addicted to eat but it's more like lotsa celebrations throughout the past few months. We don't go for luxurious or expensive clubs, we just spend time hanging out drinking at places like Sanctuary, Library, Euphoria & Helo Bali. So, it's not always clubbing, it's more of drinking sessions. I enjoyed all of it to the max, because of the company I have. Cool and nice people they are~~
*I'm proud to say that I only went drinking once in October! Whee~~~~~*

It's been a few weeks that I'm not really myself. Maybe it's the late night sleep and waking up early in the morning. The stupid sleeping time I have is actually screwing up my body nice and slow. Most of the time, I won't be tired physically; but mentally, my mind is screwed up! I can't think straight nor can I think productively. Which is bad especially when it comes to assignments and group discussions! My mind will just go blank and I can't brainstorm at all! Argh! I need more sleep and rest.

Kinda hurt my wrist while finalizing my assignments on Tuesday. I thought it was Tendonitis, but my soon-to-be Doctor friend told me it's called Carpal Tunnel Syndrome. Wiki it, you'll get what it means. It hurts a lot! Now, I'm limp-typing here. Crap! Hope it'll heal real soon~~

Oh ya! I went for MotoGP the other day @ Sepang International Circuit. Got free tickets from my classmate cuz he couldn't make it. Thanks a lot Edward! I'm not a big fan of MotoGP nor F1, but there's no harm going for such an event when you have the chance. I got slightly tanned when I went on the 2nd day (we skipped 1st day), and there were not much crowd. On the final day, the crowd was WOW!!!! I didn't thought that it'll be so damn crowded! Finding a parking slot was awfully hard and the distance from the parking to the grand stand was like so f-king far! We were no VIPs, so no reserve parking. Overall, I enjoyed myself that day, it was a fascinating day for me. Saw a lot of people and got to know a bit about MotoGP. Almost everyone was a big fan of Valentino Rossi, even my bro is! Well, he won the race. I would very much like to upload the photos, but I guess I'll do it another time.

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It's late now. 4.31am! Gonna just sign off here and go to bed.

Good Night Peeps!

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Okay!!!

I'll be sitting for my next paper in like 25 hours from now!!!!

I can't concentrate!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

I'm going nuts!!!

I'm thinking of a lot of things!

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Let me list them down perhaps I'll be able to concentrate after this:

1.

 I wanna get a CAR. But no $$$$. 

No $$ No Talk

2. 

I wanna do my own business. 

Thinking of this particular one but don't know how to start with it. 

Still thinking...

3. 

I just found out that I have a cousin actually studied in the same school with me and I didn't know. 

She added me on facebook but I just brushed it off thinking that it was just another friend. 

While browsing, I realised that she was my cousin, a not-so-close one, I guess. 

Now she's studying like 1km away from me? 

Wow! Amazing! How did I not know that?!?!? Oh well! What a small world!

Wonder if she knew it all along that we were distant relative? 

4. 

I can't stop thinking of what I wanna do/going to do after finals!!!!!

5.

 I want finals to be DONE already!!!!!!! 

Ahhhh....

feeling better?

Hmm...

Yeah I guess.

Alright, back to study mode now. =) 

Oh! One last thing! I can't get CS off my head? I don't know why????? I wanna play wei~~~~~~