Sad,Irritating,Happy

The coming few days will be kinda a break for me.

Today is Israk and Mikraj holiday for Negeri Sembilan. Nilai, being part of the state is also having the privilege of getting a holiday. Tomorrow onwards till the end of the week, we kinda had a self-declared hols. Wow!!! Nice!


I was in a freaking bad mood yesterday. Nothing was going my way. Everything seems to be super messed up.

We had our Microbio quiz in the afternoon and she gave back our papers for the test2. And guess what? I screwed up again. Worst still...I did it badly. With the current situation, I asked her whether if it's possible for me to pass the finals, and she said...' You have to work really really hard, put in more effort, if not...'. OMG!!!! You know how I felt at that very moment? It's as though, I've already flunk the subject and she's just saying nice words to make me feel better. I so felt like crying, my tears were just at the verge of falling down my cheeks but I held it back, cuz it's gonna be so embarrassing to cry in front of her and my classmates. Gosh...

Anyway, I think I know the reason why that all my test 2 grades are like super bad...or I should say that my grades for this semester is like trash. I wouldn't wanna mention in detail, but let's just say that I'm very distracted with all the things that has happen throughout the semester.

Okay...enough about test...I'm over it.

So...after class...around evening, I went to Kajang. And boy! I was so LUCKY!!!! Thinking that Malaysia's Public Transport is so reliable, I took the KTM. Guess what? I got stranded on the freaking train for about one and a half hour. I can see the sky turning dark every minute it passes by. By the time it was all dark, I can barely see anything. It just stopped in the middle of no where, like about 1-2km from Batang Benar station. Walao!!! I so feel like bursting out that very moment! Babies were crying non-stop and it's so irritating when your day is not that good.
I just hate it!!! Bad experience and also my FIRST time~~~~~


The worst part is that some friends are waiting for me for dinner and it's like...it started at 8.30 but I only reach around 9 sthing? When we reach, everyone is already done with the food and left some food for us. Gosh! I bet everyone hates me now. = s It's just so not my day!

All because of this, I was super late for clubbing with my classmates. I'm really sorry about that people. So, I reach Sanctuary about 11.45pm? I think...Everyone was already there, half way through the session. I felt bad for both parties - for him and them. He fetched me all the way but didn't really get the chance to go in; for my classmates, perhaps I missed out some fun. And also...I left early, around 2 sthing...The lastest to arrive but the earliest to leave. Oh well! I thought that I wouldn't have fun, but I think I did. Instead, I got tipsy or perhaps drunk and was talking crap when I left the club. Hmmm...What should I say? I don't know. I was in a bad mood the whole day, so I guess in the club, I danced it all out and I feel betta. ^^

Thanks for taking care of me. Sorry if I made you guys worried. But I'm alright. ^^

Muackz!

Gurls will be gurls

Sue and Me

Yeah!

Sue and Soo

A bad scenario

I don't know why things are just getting more and more complicated. It's so dramatic. You know like how the sequential thingy goes...where one leads to another. I'm not being sarcasitc or what here, just that I don't see the point of the whole thing that's happening.

I'm so confused! I don't really know how to solve probs you know? I'm not a counselor or what. What's worst is that I'm kinda stuck with the prob too. I'm trying to work things out but seems like it's not working at all. Instead I think things are getting more and more complicated, more f*cked up.

If there's a prob, why not say it out and resolve it together? Isn't it harder to keep things to urself and not sharing and in the end nothing's done. Many innocent people are involved in this whole scenario which is totally not good. I don't hope to involve so many people but things just kinda got out of hand.

I'm so sorry for all the things that have happen and involving friends. Thanks for all the advices and help you guys gave. Hope that things will be solved soon. =)

Argh!!@#$%^&*(

I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe due to certain distraction, my grades are totally going down the drain. I was pretty frus with the results I got from the test. None of them is near satisfaction. So what if I've studied? My grades are still as bad as it is....F*** it! Feeling rather demotivated at times...hmmm....



A lot of things have happen throughout the pass few weeks. Nothing to be proud of, so, there's no point mentioning to make things worst. There were happy moments and also sad moments.



For some reason, things got more complicated. I didn't expect that to happen though. I mean, I didn't really see that coming. I wished it wasn't that complicated and things would be much more easy to understand, unlike now, I don't know what to do. It's just hard to get on with this. I don't understand why? What's the reason behind all this controversy...can someone at least shed some light?



Whatever it is...I hope to get it through and over with. Dragging it on and on is just not solving any of this problem. Perhaps you need some time, so be it...Time is given. I won't interrupt much if you don't want me to. I'll leave space for everyone. Well, not knowing what to do or how to react is just the worst part of the whole scenario. Seriously, I still don't understand why things got out of hand just like this? A phrase...another way of telling and confiding in a person can actually make it such a big fuss. Well, each individual have their own thinking and I have no right to interfere with that. All I can do is comment and maybe try to mend things up, if I can (which I doubt it)

Argh! I just hate this feeling!!!!!!!!!!!

Just some TESTs!!!!

Sorry for not updating.

A lot of things happened and I'm not exactly in the mood to talk about it.

Intiball pics will be uploaded soon. After I get it from my classmates.

There are so freaking many test this 2 weeks. Gosh!!!!! I'm going nuts!!!!

Tomorrow - Biochemistry Test2
So totally can't fail this time again...OMG!!! I've never failed a test before, and this is the first time ever since this course. So sad...

22/7 Tue - Microbiology Test 2
Don't know what to expect...lucky that I passed the previous one.

24/7 Thu - Genetics Test 2
Sobs again...flunked the first one and so not wanna fail it. Gosh...


WTH?!?! So many things happen all at once, I think I'm seriously gonna be gaga soon...Now you get what I mean? I've ady done so badly for two test...and i don't think I can afford to fail again...this is so gonna affect my transfer if anything do happen. *Choi* I can't afford any distraction now, so I hope you guys understand. =)

Anyway, ChorWai...I read ur blog! Nice! Bon Odori...and thanks for tagging me -_-
Lol...I'll do the tag soon...=)

Take care ppl, don't know when I'll update again.
Too many things to do, Too many things to think about...

Silence

Silence

That's what I feel at this very moment, really total silence, where you can only here the ceiling fan's spinning and me typing, nothing else. Just pure silence...nice!

I didn't on any music cuz I'm just not in the mood to listen to any songs. Well, maybe only one song which I'm very addicted to - Colby O'donis ft Akon : What You Got. It's not a very unique or special song, but somehow I'm very addicted to it. Especially the part where the guitar had kinda a super small semi- solo part...it's not electric guitar but just normal acoustic or classical guitar. ^^ Shin was teasing Ann on apple pie today and everyone was so blur. LOL. Maybe people never heard of that song before or it just didn't occur to them that the song's lyrics actually have a phrase 'sweeter than apple pie'. It was funny though. Haha...*inside joke*

Sometimes I really feel like isolating myself, locking myself in the room and not interact with anyone. I don't understand why I have such kind of thinking, but somehow it had occurred to me. Maybe sometimes there's an influx of informations or some very disturbing stuff, and I wanna keep it out of my life and not think too much about. Or maybe I think that all these things are just crap?!? Please note that I have no intention of offending or hurting anyone's feelings, I'm just being very general. Sorry if I did. Maybe I'm just not in the mood to talk and need some time alone. Well...I'll get over it sooner or later.

Hate making decisions!!!!! Yes or NO!??!?

I feel like crap!

Supposed to feel great after donating blood rite?

But guess what? I'm totally the opposite. My whole hand was so numb, even after I woke up from a 2 hours nap. My hand was reacting pretty slow and me myself was a bit 'slow' as well. I wonder why?!?

I hate crappy feeling! It ruins everything that's nice!

I just can't stop thinking about it. I'm trying very hard. But when I'm alone in the room, I tend to think of it.

Totally out of the mood. I need something to cheer me up....
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