Waiting

Life is like a busy road filled with cars. 

 Either you rush through the heavy traffic 

or 

you shall just wait for your turn to cross the road.

Stop. Wait. Look.

At times you'll get fed up with such processes especially when waiting is involve.

Have you tried being stuck in a traffic jam that last you for an hour or two, maybe even more? 

That's sickening!

Well, that's how life is. Half the time you'll be stuck in the jam and wait...and wait...and wait.

I do get stuck in the congestion sometimes but half the time,

I'm stuck in my own mind! 

Waiting for a resolution to arise 

or

even waiting for someone to appear right before me.

To be truthful to myself,

I'm tired to waitiing. 

I ask myself,

why am I always the one waiting?

All the while, I've been really patient.

Please don't test my patience level, 

it's definately degrading and that's not a good news.

I hope in the future, 

people will be punctual and not let others wait.

I don't wanna be a hypocrite here, 

I just wanna voice out my feelings cuz 

I just feel that I've been waiting for people since like forever!

People don't appreciate!!! AT ALL!

Okay!!!

I'll be sitting for my next paper in like 25 hours from now!!!!

I can't concentrate!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

I'm going nuts!!!

I'm thinking of a lot of things!

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Let me list them down perhaps I'll be able to concentrate after this:

1.

 I wanna get a CAR. But no $$$$. 

No $$ No Talk

2. 

I wanna do my own business. 

Thinking of this particular one but don't know how to start with it. 

Still thinking...

3. 

I just found out that I have a cousin actually studied in the same school with me and I didn't know. 

She added me on facebook but I just brushed it off thinking that it was just another friend. 

While browsing, I realised that she was my cousin, a not-so-close one, I guess. 

Now she's studying like 1km away from me? 

Wow! Amazing! How did I not know that?!?!? Oh well! What a small world!

Wonder if she knew it all along that we were distant relative? 

4. 

I can't stop thinking of what I wanna do/going to do after finals!!!!!

5.

 I want finals to be DONE already!!!!!!! 

Ahhhh....

feeling better?

Hmm...

Yeah I guess.

Alright, back to study mode now. =) 

Oh! One last thing! I can't get CS off my head? I don't know why????? I wanna play wei~~~~~~

111?

What's 111?

Hmm...1=1x1?

Hmmm....1=1=1? *lame*

WRONG!

Actually those were spontaneously generated answers. Not something that I have in mind. 

Alright...this is what I wanna say.......

Woot! Woot! Woot! 

Happy ONE(1) Year Eleven (11) Months Dear~! 

Muacks!

*That's what 111 stands for!*

I enjoyed my every moment with you.

Regardless of any misunderstanding that is bound to happen, 

!~I Love You~!

P.S. Wish me luck in finals! 

Why do we always have to live in fear?

Why do we always have to live in fear? 

...living in a den as though we are afraid to let people know what we do.

...living as though we don't have any rights to do anything.

...living like servant to others...

What the heck is this?

I'm turning 22 in a few months time!

I have a life to live!

I don't want anyone to control how I live my life.

My loved ones are the people I treasure the most.

Regardless of what circumstances, I believe that we DON'T NEED TO LIVE IN FEAR!!

I don't care how people look at me.

I'm not rich nor pretty.

I'm not talented nor smart.

So what if I'm not rich? 

Can't I live my life MY WAY?

Can't I have a normal day?

Can't I have luxurious food once in a while?

Can't I go travelling with my friends?

Can't I JUST HAVE MY LIFE BACK?

I'm just a plain girl.

My family is MY FAMILY!

I don't see the point of explaning to people how I'm living my life.

All those idiots need to know is:

IT IS MY LIFE! YOU CAN'T CONTROL IT!

DAMN IT! 

IF YOU DON'T HAVE A LIFE! 

GET ONE! !@#$%^&*(

I seriously dislike people telling me what to do in my life. First of all, you guys took away something precious from me. FINE! So what's next?

I'm Almost Done....with 1st year...sobs

Another 8 more days, it's gonna be another battle. Wish me luck!

I'm almost done with my first year. Finally! FIRST YEAR will be over!!!!!

I wonder how many first year am I gonna go through! *Choi! Choi! Choi!; Touch Wood*

I would like to confess that:

1. I have not been studying much this semester.

2. I pray that I'll pass all my subs this semester.

3. I hope my coursework marks will be alright.

4. the Information System exam will be a open book test! It was for the previous semesters, but why not us? Sigh! Praying hard for an impossible miracle!

Actually, I find this semester rather educating depsite the fact that I haven't actually been a good girl. I came to know about a lot of things and also knowledge that I thought I wouldn't obtain. There are some people that has finally reveal their true self, which is rather disgusting and annoying. But I'm good with the fact that you wouldn't be in the same class with me anymore. Cheers!
I know I'm mean in this sense, but for my future, I can't risk anything.