Fear

F E A R

Once bitten, twice shy.

I believe everyone would have something(s) that they fear of. Be it the boogie mosnter, clown, worms, cockroaches, snakes, water, darkness...etc., they will always be there to haunt us. Fears may be build up from young, when kids come across some really creepy or bad experience, thus, in the long run, he/she will develop such fears. Perhaps some of us are able to realize things and somehow manage to shed off such fears. I would say that such efforts are quite challeging; professional help are available these days, so it wouldn't be such a hassle to seek for advices.

I feel that, having fear towards something is not a bad thing after all. You will tend to be more cautious of your surroundings and be alert. One would also be more careful of the choices they make and hope for the best that it's not the same mistake. The down side of having fear is that, one may not be able to move on or perhaps goes into depression.

It took a pretty long time for me to let go of my fear. I would say it's a good experience and I've become a stronger person. But somehow, there will still be something inside me that reminds me of what I've been thru. Letting someone into your life is a big step, and I've taken this very step. I'm happy with my decision and I did not regret it; hope you did not too. Future is unpredictable, it's undeniable, but we should just appreciate what we have at the moment. Agree?

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I should get going now. Till next time peeps!

I'm finally done with all the Test 1. Yeah...but have no idea how I'll score for the other remaining papers that are yet to be given back.

Last thursday, I went for a field trip with my coursemates to Yakult back in Seremban. Well, I've passed by that place dozen of times but have yet to explore what's inside it. I have to say that I'm pretty fascinated and amazed by how they actually make Yakult. The production is so fast and everything seems to be so complicated and it's all connected. If one goes wrong, that's it people! We had a very lenglui 'tour guide' named Chew. She's very nice and explain everything to us. Some of us bought Yakult back and guess what, I drank 4 bottles in total for the whole day.

Consequences:-

Lao Sai! I went to toilet for 5 times I think...Gosh! It felt nice after letting it all out but the thought and the pain you need to go through...It's just not that nice. Lol.

In the weekends, I went to Ann's place cuz we were going shopping for prom stuffs. Grace joined too! We went to Bangsar where all the boutiques are situated. All 3 of us managed to get dresses from Sew & Soul, which I would say, have some pretty nice line of clothings and a friendly owner. Cat Whiskers were having sales that day too. We managed to grab 2 items each to make up to 6 items and get discount! Yeah! I bought heels and tube plus a necklace. While Ann got this blouse and a dress; Grace got herself heels as well and a blouse if i'm not mistaken. Had pretty much fun shopping that day, especially when you are able to get so many things at a affordable price!

I took the train home after that and dad was there to fetch me.

Oh Oh Oh! I have an annoucement to make!!!!!

I GOT A NEW HANDPHONE!!!!! YIPPIE!

I've been longing for one since don't for how long and I finally got what I want! Yeah! *Hugs* Daddy and Mummy! My brand new phone is the Sony Ericsson's K810i which have Cyber-shot function. Yeh babeh! I can camwhore all I want now! Haha...I'm lovin' it! It was such a surprise but I guess I know the reason behind it. I don't wanna mention much cuz it wasn't a nice experience.

Chan Wa Band Concert is on this Saturday. I guess I'll be going with my bro and Mun Wei. It's gonna be my first time sitting with the audience. How I miss those times I used to perform up in the stage...I think I'll be meeting up with some really old friends there cuz it's like a tradition for most of the ex to go back for the concert once they have a chance. Seriously, I have no idea why. Perhaps giving them support? or just to see how the juniors are doing?...We'll see this saturday. Hope I won't be disappointed!!!!

Ciaoz!

10 Things

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

10 things on why am I shouting?
1. I'm pretty broke. Don't know if I can get my prom dress and heels.
2. I did badly for my Biochem Test!
3. I have Micro test on Tues n I haven't even touch it.
4. I have numerous journals and reports due this week which I haven't touch a bit!
5. I'm so NOT motivated to do anything, which is totally a disaster!
6. I MISS YOU very much!!!!
7. I'm very sad that Cassie is having skin problems.
8. I'm feeling really hot now! STUPID weather.
9. I wanna CUT hair!
10. I'm scared.disappointed.

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I just came back to the hostel not long ago. Feeling very tired and lazy...I don't feel like studying or doing anything at the moment. But I can't procrastinate!

Ok. Study! No more fooling around.

OMG! NO WATER!

Guess what the hell happen today?!?

It's funny yet very unlucky of me!

WATER STOP COMING HALFWAY WHEN I WAS BATHING! WITH BUBBLES ALL OVER!

GOSH! That's so...pathetic.

Angie so happen to pass by so she went to check out her level's water condition. To my relieve, there's water there. Thank goodness! I gotta walk down 3 flat of stairs just to bath!! Somemore...it's like in towel you know?!? Gosh! It's so embarassing! Stupid INTI! Didn't pay water bills?!?!?

ARGH! Now, I wanna drink water also I have to go down or go to the other side of the block to get it. Haiz...sad case. Toilet stinks! Haiz...

Hope they'll fix it tomorrow.

Journey to Sekinchan

Se-kin-chan

That's Jiok's hometown. In case you don't know who is Jiok and I've been mentioning her name a few times here, she's my A-levels classmate and is one of the really close + great friends I have. We've known each other for almost 3 years now but I've never been to her hometown. Finally, on friday, 4 of us (AnGie + Wen + Jiok + ME) took our backpacks and left for Sekinchan...

The journey there was kinda long, 2 hours of driving by our beloved Wen *thanx*. Finally, we reach around 7-8pm. Our first stop was at "Wan Lau" for DINNER! Funny name rite? Anyway, they serve delicious food! Boy! The dishes taste extra delicious when you're hungry. We had salt steamed crabs (x3), fried baby sotong, 'Hang Hng' - Stingray and 'La la Jian'. Guess how much it cost? ONLY RM61!!!!Though we are 'filled' but we went to the next stop for dumplings 'Shui Jiao'. (12 dumplings + a plate of noodles)/4 = super-duper full! Feeling totally satisfied, we headed back to her house, met her parents and her sis! They are so friendly. ^^ Oh oh oh! We had our FIRST honeydew that nite. Towards midnite, Jiok drove us out for Yumcha! Yupz! Jiok's driving!!!!!!!! It was a totally new experience cuz the place where we Yumcha was not the normal Mamak, it was a cafe like...like open air cafe. Nice atmosphere. We called it a day after that.

Before Bed
Me and AnGie, our 1st pic together?

The sun shined into the room around 8am. Surprisingly it was only 8am! Cuz all of us thought that it was already noon. By the time all of us got up, Jiok's mum and aunt was already making 'Ba Zhang' in the kitchen. YUM! Anyway, Uncle and her sis brought us out for Brunch! *wink* We had crabs again! Shark meat soup was a special dish, haven't tried that before, in fact I've never tasted shark meat before, only shark fin. Hmm...There was spicy prawn, slipper fish (I don't know what it's called, but it looks like slipper to me) and another type of fish. YUM! It totally satisfied our appetite! Next, 6 of us in her dad's car were in search of honeydews! We managed to get some and headed back home. We ate our SECOND honeydew then. Rested a bit and left for Harbour Cafe where we met Jiok's friends.

After that we went to the paddy field! Gosh! It's so huge...can't even see the edge of it! Hmm...The ones I saw lastime in Malacca wasn't that large, this is really huge man! We took some pics under the HOT sun! The greens was so nice, like it's so relaxing. Maybe that's why I LOVE GREEN! We ate again after that, then stopped by this stall for Soybean and 'Tau Fu Fa'. Headed back home to pack and left for Nilai around 5.30pm! Before we leave, all of us had our THIRD honeydew.

Struggling to open our eyes

Yeah!

Woohoo! Feel the GREEN!

The journey home was faster. HAha...as expected. But all of us are exhausted especially Wen that was driving. Lots of Thanx to her. Muackz to Jiok for bringing us around. Gie for sleeping with me...hahaha...on the bed. Thanx to uncle, aunties and jiejie...hehe...I totally enjoyed myself! It was so relaxing! I had fun! Though the journey was far but I feel it's worth it! ^^ I HAD NICE NICE DELICIOUS FOOD! Oh ya! Not to forget, Thanx for the BaZhang!

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*Thank you for a wonderful trip*

Hint-ed

I get the hint now.

Maybe I'm wrong but I get it.

I'll back off.

And things be the way it is supposed to be.

I'll not interrupt anymore.

Thanks for letting me know.

Good day!

I'm disappointed.
I thought I'm actually contented with what I have now but I just realize that it's just not enough.
When I thought you guys were actually there for me, but in fact you guys are no where to be found. Why is this happening to me again?!? Why does history kept repeating itself?!? I've learnt from mistakes, and somehow I tend to end up in the same type of trouble all over again. It's as though I've learn nothing at all. I try not to care so much cuz I know I'll get hurt in the end. Oh well, mayb it's supposed to be this way.

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I still can't help it. I still feel...weird! HMPH! What the heck is wrong with me?!? GOSH! This is not good! And oh ya! I'm sick! Not sick sick yet, but I'm sick! Caught a cold I guess and I have running nose now. Ate medicine and slept for so long! I'm feeling drowsy now from the medicine, so I guess I'm going to sleep now though it's only 10pm! Which is totally very EARLY for me to sleep. What's more when there's only 2pm class tomorrow???? Ahhhhhh....

There's gonna be 3 TESTs in the next 3 weeks, so it's one test per week. Well, that's betta than having everything on the same week. So, I have nothing to complain about it. There's so much to study so I betta start now before it's too late. Hmph! STUDY!

To end this post, I have something happy to share::

INTIBALL is coming! Yeah...so I'm going with my classmates. It's gonna(hopefully) be my last prom before I leave INTI officially! I'm not going with a date I guess cuz dear is not here. Anyway, it's okay cuz most of my classmates are not having a date...hehe...The prom will be held at ISTANA Hotel in KL and there's an after party too at MAISON...Woohoo!! FOC for entrance somemore you know?!? I'm excited about it. ^^

*I can't upload pics!!!!! Disappointed again...*

Another week gone

A week passed by again just like that.

There was this 'Amazing Maze' thingy going on at the MPH here and the crowd was madness on the last day. I would say that it was quite fun for the combined maze. There were some 'ah kua' with big boobs, mummies and some ghost.

Chor Wai and Mridula came up to visit me and Sue on Wednesday. We went out for dinner or shud I say supper at Secret Recipe. I'm really glad and happy to see both of them. The last time the 4 of us went out was on the 1st nite of CNY. Gosh! That's long ago rite? Haha...Anyway, it was good meeting up with them. Took them on a stroll on campus *lame* I know. After that, they went back to Sban. Pictures will be uploaded soon after I get them from Chor Wai. ^^
## Chor Wai uploaded the pics in his blog, check it out there. ##

Thursday nite was..mm...I shall not describe much nor about Friday. Ask me if you wanna know more. *guilty*

Saturday nite I went out with the gals. We had dinner and watched INDIANA JONES. No comments about the movies but I had fun going out with the gurls. ^^ Gonna miss you Mri!

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Sometimes I don't know if I'm being too sensitive. Perhaps I should not care so much about others and how others feel about it. I should just be myself. Ya! That's the way! I should just be myself.

Whatever...I'm gonna get back to my assignment and finish it once and for all!
Ciaoz Ppl.