______ or not to _______?

To trust or not to trust?

This is something which I have contemplated ever since I step into college 7 years ago.

There were just too many betrayal which not only happen to me but also my friends and family that I saw throughout the years, and it has come to a point which I am reluctant to trust anybody.

A few of my closest friends...my family...there are the only ones.

To Love or not to love?

A blessing that's given to me since I was born. 

I thought my first relationship would be happily ever after; but not everyone's life is like a fairy tale. So much so, that didn't work out and I moved on. And there are people that came and left. Some broke my heart and I broke their heart. Anyway, I'm happy now, with what I have in my life. I have friends and family that loves me and I love them just as much. Family is the best and I always always heart them.  

To Live or not to live?

This isn't much of an option. 

There are times where I fell so hard and deep that it feels like I can never climb back up again. That is when I have this thought, which is not amusing at all. I try to refrain myself from thinking about it.

Not good to have this thought cuz it just screws up your life. And psychiatrist might just think that I'm nutz and I'll end up in some mental hospital!!! 

I'm just in this bad bad bad mood and i'm just stressed out! It's driving nuts!! 

The "Vow" of Travelling

It's unbelievable that I started this blog in 2008 and it's been almost 4 years already! Looking back at all the things that I have written over the years, some are just plain stupid and some are pretty thoughtful (*not self-praising, just thoughtful from my point of view). Well, may the bygones be the bygones, and may the day ahead be a better one.

I just watched "Friends with Benefits". Apart from THE part, I think the story line was pretty good. I haven't got to watch such movies in a long time. Movies like that rarely come along and when it does, it's just turns my thinking around. Anyway, I like the set in the movie. I like the sunny days and all the New York-ers way of life and also Los Angeles!

I like Grand Central Station, especially when they did the flash mob in movie, it was magnificent! I have seen Central Park many times in various movies, would love to see it for myself!




So...that reminds me of  a ' vow' that me and a friend's made - to travel around the world in 5 years time from  the date: 13th March 2012. It was just a plain spontaneous decision made over lunch. Of course we did consider the fact that one of us or both of us might be married by then and blah blah blah...but well, to us...probably that wouldn't be a problem yet. Let's see how things work out to be. It would be a GREAT achievement if we can actually do such awesome things together. I love the idea. Always wanted to do something like that, if I have the financials! That's why we set it 5 years from now...cuz I would have started working and earning...and I would be able to afford it? I hope so!! *Fingers-crossed*

There are so many places that I would love to visit- Maldives, Rio de Janeiro, Paris, Mexico, Switzerland...etc. So many many places, with fascinating culture and scenery.

Aww...I'm dreaming now. Off to dreamland now! ToodleS!

"Place"

This is my so-called "place" where I seek comfort in when I'm going through difficulties.

I'm not going through tough times. It's more like my brain is over-functioning and makes me think of unnecessary stuffs which in turn drain my energy..mentally

I realized that I'm no longer the same me as I was few years back, or probably a year back. My thinking is so much different and my expectations in life have changed tremendously. It's scary when I think of it.

I'm taking a step back, to think, of myself, my future, my past...and many more.

Something that I can do over the short break that I have. At least, a breathing space for me.

I would like to travel, to go somewhere where people don't know me. I want to scream my heart out, for whatever reason it may be. I'm happy with my life, just that there are too much input and there's no output in my mental system, so it's pretty congested at the moment. I need to take time off.

Love you then, love you still...forever and always. 

To my beloved Piggy. Happy 3 years 9 months! I Love You! 

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Contemplating?

Is that what I'm doing?

I suppose so. My mum threw me a lot of questions today which I have no answer to them. Well, not exactly no answer, it's more like I'm not too sure about the answer.

Thinking Hard.

Thinking Slow.

Wish me Luck

10 virtually instant ways to improve your life

This is an article adapted from LifeHack.Org. I came across this article when I was google-ing "How to Improve Life". Why this all of the sudden? Why did I want to improve my life? Isn't it good already?


Well, I have gone through ups and downs in my life (who hasn't?) and somehow along the way, there were 'contamination' and I would just like to go for 'detoxification'. I want to improve my life mentally at the moment. The way I have been living now is not exactly a 'healthy' way, so I feel it's just time to make a change. There is no harm in improving your life. This should be the way!! Improving your daily life makes it so much more meaningful. 


You can view it here too! 


So here goes the adapted version.

• Stop jumping to conclusions. There are two common ways this habit increases people’s difficulties. First, they assume that they know what is going to happen, so they stop paying attention and act on their assumption instead. Human beings are lousy fortune-tellers. Most of what they assume is wrong. That makes the action wrong too. The second aspect of this habit is playing the mind-reader and assuming you know why people do what they do or what they’re thinking. Wrong again, big time. More relationships are destroyed by this particular kind of stupidity than by any other.
• Don’t dramatize. Lots of people inflate small setbacks into life-threatening catastrophes and react accordingly. This habit makes mountains out of molehills and gives people anxieties that either don’t exist or are so insignificant they aren’t worth worrying about anyway. Why do they do it? Who knows? Maybe to make themselves feel and seem more important. Whatever the reason, it’s silly as well as destructive.
• Don’t invent rules. A huge proportion of those “oughts” and “shoulds” that you carry around are most likely needless. All that they do for you is make you feel nervous or guilty. What’s the point? When you use these imaginary rules on yourself, you clog your mind with petty restrictions and childish orders. And when you try to impose them on others, you make yourself into a bully, a boring nag, or a self-righteous bigot.
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• Avoid stereotyping or labeling people or situations. The words you use can trip you up. Negative and critical language produces the same flavor of thinking. Forcing things into pre-set categories hides their real meaning and limits your thinking to no purpose. See what’s there. Don’t label. You’ll be surprised at what you find.

• Quit being a perfectionist. Life isn’t all or nothing, black or white. Many times, good enough means exactly what it says. Search for the perfect job and you’ll likely never find it. Meanwhile, all the others will look worse than they are. Try for the perfect relationship and you’ll probably spend your life alone. Perfectionism is a mental sickness that will destroy all your pleasure and send you in search of what can never be attained.
• Don’t over-generalize. One or two setbacks are not a sign of permanent failure. The odd triumph doesn’t turn you into a genius. A single event—good or bad—or even two or three don’t always point to a lasting trend. Usually things are just what they are, nothing more.
• Don’t take things so personally. Most people, even your friends and colleagues, aren’t talking about you, thinking about you, or concerned with you at all for 99% of the time. The majority of folk in your organization or neighborhood have probably never heard of you and don’t especially want to. The ups and downs of life, the warmth and coldness of others, aren’t personal at all. Pretending that they are will only make you more miserable than is needed.
• Don’t assume your emotions are trustworthy. How you feel isn’t always a good indicator of how things are. Just because you feel it, that doesn’t make it true. Sometimes that emotion comes from nothing more profound than being tired, hungry, annoyed, or about to get a head-cold. The future won’t change because you feel bad—nor because you feel great. Feelings may be true, but they aren’t the truth.
• Don’t let life get you down. Keep practicing being optimistic. If you expect bad things in your life and work, you’ll always find them. A negative mind-set is like looking at the world through distorting, grimy lenses. You spot every blemish and overlook or discount everything else. It’s amazing what isn’t there until you start to look for it. Of course, if you decide to look for signs of positive things, you’ll find those too.
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• Don’t hang on to the past. This is my most important suggestion of all: let go and move on. Most of the anger, frustration, misery, and despair in this world come from people clinging to past hurts and problems. The more you turn them over in your mind, the worse you’ll feel and the bigger they’ll look. Don’t try to fight misery. Let go and move on. Do that and you’ve removed just about all its power to hurt you.

A Little About The Author of this Article

Adrian Savage is a writer, an Englishman, and a retired business executive, in that order, who now lives in Tucson, Arizona. You can read his other articles at Slow Leadership, the site for everyone who wants to build a civilized place to work and bring back the taste, zest and satisfaction to leadership and life. Recent articles there on similar topics include How to save yourself from being hooked again and Why fear of failure is the most common blockage to success. Adrian’s latest book, Slow Leadership: Civilizing The Organization, is now available at all good bookstores.

People that make a difference in my life

Hi peeps!

I haven't been very consistent with my blog post, sorry about that. But I guess there's not much readers anyway, so I think I'll just update whenever I can.

Few weeks ago, I have been in this very down mood. Partly because I didn't do too well in my finals, got the results and it was not something that I am proud of. In my defense before anyone start criticizing, I did the best I could. Guess it wasn't enough?!? Oh well, no fret! I shall just do better the next time round. My second chance won't come until next year, so it'll be pretty hectic for me next year as it'll be my final semester for this course. Another reason would be --- thinking of how life would be after graduation (though it's about a year from now).

As I finish each semester, I will think of how long would I take to graduate. But miraculously, last semester what I thought was "when did I started this course?". It was July 2009. How long has it been? 2 years. Time flies, don't you think? With a blink of eye, I'm in my final year, waiting for myself to achieve and graduate with a degree! (FINALLY!) All this while, I have been saying that I prefer working than studying, but as I approach the working life(as in PERMANENTLY working), I think I'll prefer studying. You can have all the fun you want in the world and no one cares about you. You can skip classes if you want (not advisable though), and you can be late for classes and enter from the back door. Can you do all those when you're working?!? NOPE. What you'll get as punishment might just be embarrassment or probably pay cut, well it depends I suppose.

I wonder how life would be after we graduate? My dear bunch of friends which made my life in Sunway colorful. All of us will be heading to different directions. This is gonna be exactly how it was when I  left INTI. Everyone is spread across the globe pursuing their career.

Great Combination of Life

Friends are essential in life. They make a difference in your daily life and true friends will stand by you regardless of what the circumstances are.

Hometown Peeps!

Although my friends/classmates are younger than me but they are good people with pretty matured thinking. When I thought I would be mixing around with a bunch of kids (no offence but this is really what I thought when I first joined Sunway), they amazed me! Don't judge a book by its cover! True enough! I heart you girls a lot!!!!

Sunway Buddies!

I saw an article somewhere before, relating to friendship. It says that you don't have to be sad if your friends leave you because they have done their duty in your life. Why are friends here? Because there are around to guide us through difficulty and assist us. Instead of getting pissed at them, we should be grateful to them. Once their duty is done in your life, just like guardian angels, they will leave and head on to another destination or another person to guide them. The article was pretty meaningful. Will try to find it and post it up here.

Inti Peeps! 

In different stages in life, you meet different people. Though there are vague memory of my friends from kiddy garden and primary school, but just want to thank you all for being there for me. As I grew up and met more friends in high school and college days, I enjoyed myself with your company. Without you guys by my side, I doubt I can make it through those days. I seldom keep in touch doesn't mean that I have forgotten about you guys k? It doesn't work that way.

Lovely Girls! (Sorry KY, don't have another pic)

Alright, enough of it already. Till then peeps!

Picked Pocket

To tell you the truth, I have never been so furious with some stranger before this day.

But why today?

The sole reason to that question is: Pick Pocket!

So here's how it goes.



My brother was in KL Sentral this evening to catch a train back home. And guess what? Some blarddy Malay bastard stole his phone. My brother managed to punch him and stop him, but too bad, the bastard has already passed the phone to someone else. I think my brother should have punch his balls instead!

My brother even shouted "Pencuri! Pencuri!" but to his dismay, no one came and help. See how selfish Malaysians are? No one gives a shit about you. 

So here's the BEST part. My brother manage to get some policemen to help him out. The policemen search that bastard's body and can't find the phone...and...those fellas let him go!!!!!!

This is where I don't understand.

Earlier, after the incident, I called my Dad and told him about it. He called the Brickfields police station and told them what happened. The police there told him that my brother should have went to the "pondok" to seek police assistance, and Even If The Police Can't Find The Phone On That Bastard, They Can Still Bring Him (Aka The Bastard) In For Questioning!!!!!! Plus If Don't Admit, They Can Counter Check With The Cctv!

So, what the f*ck just happened at the station? 

THE POLICE LET HIM GO!!!! Smart asses right? Seriously! WTF are they doing? No wonder there is no way to curb such crimes in M'sia because this is what they do! Let culprits walkaway! Fantastically Great Job! 


I'm seriously very disappointed with the Malaysia police force. My brother is too. I told him to not expect too much from them. There are more disappointments on the way. This is just a small matter. I think we aren't the only ones. I have lost my faith towards them long long time ago.

Look at the case of the Acid Splasher. What are they doing about it now? Yeah...photofit produced and all, but is he nabbed? No yet right? Sigh. Look at those victims. They are much more in pain than we are.

I believe Malaysia police force can do better, what happened to the police force that we used to look up to when we were young kids? What we have studied in the books are not exactly true, aren't they?

Well, this will actually make me very low, but I don't give a shit at this moment.

"To those blardy bastard that stole my brother's phone, may you guys trip and fall flat on your damn f*king face! That's right! It will be so misshaped, even your goddamn parents also can't recognize you!!!!!" 




Toodles! 


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P/S: Bro, if you're reading this. 

Don't be too sad about it. 

Something new awaits for you. Love ya lots!