失望?生气?

Sometimes I find myself rather contradicting. It's like something/someone I care about will in turn hurt me in the end. So, does it mean that I shouldn't care so much to avoid getting hurt anymore? Like people say: when there is Hope, there is Disappointment. That's the life cycle that we live in I suppose...

I feel myself being placed at a very difficult position sometimes. When I care for you, you'll tend to disappointment me or hurt me in the end. If I don't care, I'll feel guilty. I know I should be stronger and not be so soft, I'm still trying to be...

我对你不知是失望还是生气。
要把你叫醒是一件超困难的事，我不知要耗费多少力气才能把你叫醒； 你知道我是多么的辛苦吗？
或许我不该那么执著，让你继续睡就好，那大家会好过点吧！
就有如现在，现在已经是十点多了，你还在睡！叫都叫不醒！叫你还要被你骂，那又有什么意思呢？嘿~~算了吧!是自己拿来的. 你就好好的继续睡吧~~~~


Nitez....