Promises and Disappointments

There are times where I'm disappointed to a point where I don't feel anything anymore. It is as though the numbness has taken over me and there is nothing left for me to feel. As we know, disappointment do brings about sadness and pain. I guess everyone would go thru it no matter what; it's part of life.

Sometimes I don't know how to express myself when it comes to disappointment. I would rather keep my mouth shut and not talk about anything 'cause I don't want anything to happen. I dislike quarelling and misunderstanding, so I might as well keep everything to myself and not bring any unhappiness. It's hard to keep up with but then again, it's for the greater good I guess. Maybe one day, when I have lost my patience, I'll burst and everything will be different.

Promises...like one of my best friends have said. Promises made, are not meant to be broken. If they are broken, then they are no longer promises. Why wanna make promises and break it in the end? It hurts and leads to great disappointment and sadness too. Personally, I've tried that and I do agree that it hurts. Somehow, such occasions made me don't believe in promises anymore. Somehow, I'm slightly phobia towards promises made. I just feel very sad and down whenever promises are broken...really, I would cry and think a lot. Sometimes I do wonder if there's anything wrong with me, always crying over little things. I just can't help it.



Anyway, just hope for the best in everything. Hoping there will be not much of broken promises and disappointments in the year to come.

Happy CNY!

Happy Chinese New Year!!!!!!!!

It has been a tough year last year in terms of many aspects. So in this year of Ox, hopefully things will be better and everyone will be healthy and cheerful!!!

I know I haven't been blogging these days due to my work schedule and lack of internet access. Even though I've change job and I have my own desktop at the office but I don't have internet access. So it's too bad. Anyway, I do understand why they don't let us - temps use it. It's all good at the new work place. At least I don't need to stand the whole day and complaining about my leg paining. I can wear what I want to work and most importantly the pay is way higher.

People usually have new year resoultion. Well, I do have mine but I have not exactly listed it out. So just keep it simple and nice would be good enough.

There are so many things for me to blog about, especially on all the small ocassions that were celebrated. There are many more including meet ups with besties and old friends. I hope I'll have the time to blog everything in the near future.

What kept me from blogging these days was basically work. Previously working in Pepper Lunch left me no chance to even go online to check my mails but now...I guess I would have more time since I'll finish at 6pm everyday and no more shifts! =)

Last but not least, Happy Chinese New Year once again.

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All of the sudden, I feel so bothered by the fact that I'm no longer going overseas. Not to say bothered, it's sthing like sad but it's like mixture of disappoinment and sad.
I just went to facebook to check out some things and came across some pics of friends... Sigh... I wonder how it will feel if I was able to go there. I mean I was really looking forward to it and it's like all this while I have this aim to go there. But Poof!...everything is gone...within minutes of lecture and talks, it's final that I'm no longer furthering my studies there...

Though I've been disappointed many times throughout the years...but this is totally different. Things have been planned but somehow it still went out of track and ended up...like this. I stucked! I always tell myself that perhaps it's sthing good actually, giving me another chance to choose a new path. But...sigh...that feeling of not getting what u were promised...I hate that kinda feeling!!!! I do understand the situation but stimes come to think of it...it's just sad...so...sigh...

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Tomorrow will be the big day for where I'm working. Wow! You should see the amount of flowers there were at the shop this morning! It's fully filled! Gosh! Even the new restaurant beside also didn't get so many flowers. There were so many Japs in the restaurant today and they came all the way from Japan to supervise us...so u can imagine the pressure we had. It was pretty hectic today cuz there were not enough people around to help out. It's like super multi-tasking throughout the whole session of my shift. It was fun though. =) I have to be at work by 8am tomorrow to prepare things for the grand opening. Lucky me, I'm being paired with that idiotic woman! She doesn't know simple things and it's damn irritating to be asked when u r taking people's order. Sigh...too bad for me then. On the bright side, I can go home early. =) 8am-5pm! Yeah! Hehe...I'm so looking forward to....going home.

Pig got a message to go True Fitness for a month trial..then I was invited as a friend. So I went him on Sunday before my work. Then guess what? I ran on the treadmill for 20mins...then did some really simple abs exercise which it really 'killed' me. Haha... My stamina is so damn low these days. Running for 20mins during those days was a piece of cake to me but now, 20mins on the treadmill only is already killing me. Now, my whole body is aching. Haha...I think they have pretty good equipment though but let's see...I still have about 1 1/2 weeks to go cuz I only the 14-days trial. Hehe...

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Randomness

The other day, I got a call from Inti! I was working half way then the phone rang so I went to the kitchen to answer the call. Mr. Ong, my officer-in-charge called. I was surprised but happy at the same time! *weird*. Anyway, he was asking me if I would to resit the paper I've failed. Then there was this moment of silence where I was thinking of how to answer him. But anyway, I told him most probably I won't be sitting for it because I don't see the point of it. If it's gonna be that Bitch that's gonna be marking my goddamn paper, I might as well not sit for it. She's definitely 100% gonna fail me again. I can feel the aura!!...even though she's like miles away from me. Damn her! It's not like I didn't study for my finals, but she's just making my life worst on purpose!!!!!!
U guys know what she told us ( the few that failed) . U'll be damn dulan with her too if u see what she said when we ask her why we can't resit but need to retake.
"HAH? Need to retake meh? Aiyo...if I know earlier that you guys need to retake, I won't fail you guys already..."
Walao!!! Do u feel like killing her right that moment???? ARGH!!! Anyway, I bet those that failed and planning to resit must be studying hard for the upcoming resit. All The Best to you guys...and hopefully everything goes well... =) I'll pray for you guys. =)

So here I am, blogging in the middle of the night in the cybercafe nearby. Sigh...life is tough without internet at home. Sobs...but I think I'll be getting it soon. Well, not me only..it'll be us. = me and pig. We just watched "The Day the Earth Stood Still" at Pavilion after my work. =.=
Told my dumb dumb manager that I wanted to leave by 9pm (which is the time I finsih my shift too), manatau Pig arrive about like an hour late. =.= Not blaming him cuz he was working...haiz...
The movie was great by the way! Keanu Reeve is so drop dead gorgeous! Seriously, I can just melt! Haha...

Mmm...I'm just not really in the mood today. I don't know why. PMS I guess. I feel bad for pig but I just can't help it. I've been like that since morning...Sigh...I get irritated and jealous and everything else easily. I mean...aih...hard to explain. I just feel like crap...so whatever la...maybe after a beauty sleep I'll feel betta. *Pray*

I start at 2pm tomorrow that's why I'm still here blogging. If I were to start at 9am, I would have gone back to be a pig...Hehe...

Anyway, have to Ciao now people. Till next time. Take care...It feels nice to blog again...

1st week of work

So I've started working already.

Well, it's been a week now. Hmm...I would say that the environment is pretty good. The people there are very nice and they are friendly. I'm not sure if my judgement are correct but let's hope that I'm write.

I've learned a lot of things througout this one week. It has been hell during the weekends cuz there were so much to do and there were so many people!!! But I enjoyed it. No doubt getting scolding from my supervisor and manager is unavoidable, but that's how we learn I guess. They don't actually scold, just that they'll raise their tone a bit. But they do tell us in a nice way most of d time. The work there is pretty fast pace where u need to be fast in every way, so there's no lazing around. So far, I've only worked in the morning shift, so it's still alright. There's not much customer in the morning...u know...eating steak as ur brunch is not that good rite? LOL

Come to think of it, I do miss home... Though I know I have to be independent and everything, but I do miss my parents n bro a lot. When I'm back in Inti, it seems like everything is so near and I don't feel like going back. But now, when I'm just slightly further away from home, I feel that I miss them. Sigh...but too bad. I don't really have hols. Only 1 off day per week, so it's pretty impossible for me to go home...

Anyway, I'll try to update again people...Take care...Till nextime! =)

Working Life starts..

There's much to update but I just don't have the time...Sorry people.

Anyway, just a short update.

I went for Elaine's wedding on Saturday and she look stunning in her wedding gown. Check out my facebook for more pics. Oops! It's not me that uploaded though...mm...anyway...just see if you can find it. Sowey...

I've got myself a place to stay in KL and will be working in Pavilion. Hehe. I'll be starting work tomorrow and will be working 6 days per week.

Since I don't have internet connection at the place I'm staying, so I'll be visiting the CC more often now. Hehe...Maybe can learn how to play DOTA? Pig wanna teach me? Hehe...

My eyes are darn dry with the contact lens...so...I'll be sigining off now. See ya people!!

*I Miss Blogging*

Shocking News!

Few days ago I was down with high fever. Very high indeed that I need to go for blood test to verify if I actually got dengue. It was really frightening though cuz there were rashes all over my body. Anyway, I'm feeling much betta now though I have some blisters in my mouth. Damn painful!!!

Alot of things happened recently and I have some really bad news...
It was rather sad at the beginning but I got over it. There were so much hope in the beginning but everything has come to an end now. I'm not going to Australia anymore. So yeah...I'll be staying back in Malaysia. I don't know how my future will turn out to be but I do hope for the best. Though not being able to further my studies oversea is quite a waste, but on the bright side, I can spend more time with my family and pig; and also help sort out with some family matters. Trust me, it wasn't easy for me to take it either. Guess what? I'll be able to celebrate my 21st birthday with my family!!!!! Hehehe...YEAH!!!!

I know I haven't been updating my blog recently. I'll try to update once in awhile. Take care people. =)